Im just a helper. - One Shoot

I’m just a helper. - One Shoot



“Okay, it’s a rap!!”


All of them cheered loudly, in such excited tone – happy success tone. I couldn’t help it but to smile so happily inside – as always. I can see it, the reaction through their faces, one by one that is. Every time, when the result comes in such epic way, there they are...their silly reactions carved on their faces. It made me smiles, and it never fail for me to do so. Then just that, one by one they walked pass through me and again, acted like I wasn’t there. I don’t mind, it has been this way since I first started working with them.
It’s a good piece of job with salary and all that, so seeing them acted like nothing around me, why should I complain? I smiled. Then all of sudden, the head producer called my name out loud. I can’t be slacking off, that seconds I ran off towards him.


“Yes, ahjusshi?!!” He slapped me lightly with a huge fan and looked all serious on me. I made a bitter expression on my face.
“You!! Why do you have to call me by that name? Beside, I’m not that old and plus, I’m not yet married, okay?!!” He pointed his index finger straight to my face and it made me shove my head step backward.
“Because, you’re such a sour pants and the name ahjusshi suits you perfectly.” I’m still with my sour expression. I’m being bitter, every time he called me out right after the shoot. I sighed heavily and walked off.
“Lee Young!! Wait up, you...” He had to scream, doesn’t he?!! I turned around and looked straight to his face. I didn’t speak any word; instead I poke my tongue out at him.
“What you cranky pants?!!” He’s always on the bitter side, such cranky old human. He doesn’t have cheerful side of his self, how pity. “Hey, ahjusshi, I got to go now. I see you later.”
“You better behave or I’m going to tell this to your mom.” Before I ran off further away, I stopped the second I heard him mentioning mom. I turned around, again and this time I looked straight at him sharply with an angry looks on my eyes.
“Why do you have to drag mom every time?!! You’re despicable!!”
“That’s why you need to behave now or never or else.” This ahjusshi, was he trying to black mail me?!!
“Are you threatening me, old man?!!”
“You!! How are you calling old man?!!” I rolled my eyes feeling irritated. He’s major in making people annoyed, how did he even has the title of being the head producer here, what a shame and pity.
“Pity, you’re such an old nagger...more nagger than an old woman. Maybe you should be friend with obasan.” I continued more; “And that mouth of yours, beside how did you even got the title for being the head producer here? People here must have lost their mind or something!!? Nutcase...” This time, it’s his turned to give me a sharp stared; he’s starting to get pissed or something. I laughed inside at the same time I cussed upon him for taking lots of my time. “Ahjusshi, I don’t have time to play around with you anymore, I need to move, like now.”



This time, in what case it would be for him to call my name, I don’t give tolerance to stop to listen to his nag. I need to go. I ran off as fast as I can and when I left I about to entered the backstage closet, when I opened the door I somehow hit someone or something from inside the room. Quickly I went inside to check off what I have hit and I’m surprise it’s one of them.
My eyes became huge but I hid away my surprised reaction – I just don’t want it to be that obvious. Slowly he turned around his body facing me. He’s tall and I have to raise my head to look to his face. I hope I don’t have cramp around my back neck.


“I’m sorry. I-I don’t know you’re here.” I stunned and slowly I let go of a breath. He just smiled and it was a shocked that he put his hand on top of my head and rubbed it gently. I made a little shrieked noise and I think he heard it. That’s why he laughed lightly.
“You’re too cute.” He walked off and left the room. I sighed but then I got surprised when he spoke up; “I noticed you.” Then he just left like that leaving me stuck with clueless. What does he mean? Was it...? Ahh, I am unsure of myself, sometimes. I sighed again.
“He left...” I whispered to myself. He’s always has been my favorite. I’m hoping too much. Again, I sighed to myself and slowly walked to the sofa. I threw myself and lighten my body. Tears came out and flow down my cheeks, but I wiped it off quickly. I smiled and aware of myself, I laughed lightly then I got shocked again when someone tapped me from behind. Before I could turn my head around, his head popped when he leaned his head forward over my shoulders.
“You’re laughing to yourself. Mind to tell me what it was?” This guy never fails to surprise me, I swear I would get heart attack if they kept on doing this.
“It was nothing. I just remembered something from the past that it was so silly I couldn’t help but to laugh. It made me occupied.”
“You always made yourself occupied alone, why can’t you make me do that?” He brought up again. I always tried myself to avoid this.
“No, I told you already. In how many times do I have to tell you to make yourself understand? I can’t and cannot be that someone; I’m just someone who is supporting you and the others far away.” I tried many ways already but he’s too stubborn.
“I’m not listening to any of that excuses of yours. I won’t give up and you know that. If you think I would give up by any seconds, then you’re wrong, Lee Young.” I sighed heavily and stood up right away. “H-Hey, where you going?” I looked at him.
“I’m going home now.” Quickly I grabbed all of my stuff and walked out of the room. I didn’t say anything to him when I leave the room.



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One day -


All of sudden, I felt sleepy just by watching them shooting a new music video. It must be because of these past few days. I had been working all night and day with lack of sleeps – by only 4 to 5 hours. Ahjusshi has been ordering me there and this – it really made me busy though. It’s tiring but what can I do? I could not slack off or else he starts to threaten me again.
When the shooting has done for today, I quickly ran off to gives them the towel. They sweat lots though. I smiled a little as I handed the towels to them, they did took the towels though but there’s no gratitude or something. At least, a little bit of thank you would help me make my day but what am I hoping for wouldn’t come true. I sighed again.
The reason of me working here was because mom wanted me to work myself off with her brothers aka the mean old nagger ahjusshi. See, this was why the reason I got the hardest job that everyone could have and I got it easily, just like that. If it wasn’t for mom, I am not that bother enough to work with ahjusshi and prefer to continue my study. Dad would want me to do choose that instead but then again, mom always wins over dad.



3:30 pm –


Oh my, it’s lunch already. I quickly grabbed my bag and ran off from the place and went to the nearest café. This café has been the regular place for me to go since I worked with ahjusshi. It’s not like I have any choice, and there’re others restaurant nearby though but their foods, bleach. Cat wouldn’t even dare to eat the leftover food from that place. Its rubbish I tell you.
I ran myself like running in a marathon and panted myself as I entered the café. I can feel the exhaustion lately but before, I always done this but never had I felt the exhausted that quickly. Its must be the hectic duty I had been given by ahjusshi – what a torment person. I am so going to tell mom on this, just you see old nagger, just you see!!
As usual I did the same routine at the café, this and that the same things like a life circle. And as usual, I have my lunch alone, with no one beside me to accompany. I pity myself, such lonely person.
After I have done my so-so lunch, I headed off back to the place – wow, miserable I tell you. But something happened when I stepped into the shooting place – I stumbled onto him. My eyes became huge and this time I cannot hide my shocked reaction. He noticed and he laughed lightly when he saw it. This is embarrassing or rather mortified.
On top of that, I couldn’t help it but his face is just so cute, I’m melted and fell for him again – like their hit song, Again and Again.
I couldn’t even smile because of this, my face...I could feel how hot it was – burning due to embarrassment. I am so ashamed of myself. I sighed.


“Your face seems red...like a plum.” He leaned his face closer to mine; really close that it’s an inch apart, like we’re about to kiss. I looked away and avoid his face. I might die if I stare right to his face – anyone would die though if they’re on my shoes. I can hear his light laughed. I peeked and he still glaring at me. This is so discomforting and much awkward. “Are you...afraid?”
“............” How can I reply to him when he’s the one that made me terrified? I’m trembled here. He laughed lightly, again. Seriously, was he trying to torture me?!!
“I...” I think he’s waiting for me to continue what I have stopped but just as when I was about too, that mean ahjusshi called him and the others. He rushed off towards him followed by the others...before I could continue at what I am going to say. Ahjusshi saw it, and he gave me a mean winning looked, I felt so irked. Great, thank you. What a way to ruin it, old nagger!! Just you wait. The gold chance I just had, I let it gone like that and now, I don’t know when anymore I would get that chance anymore. I sighed, heavily.



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14th February –


It has been a month that I have left that place since dad has nagged mom that I should continue study instead. So here I am, at this University taking my ideal modules. I’m going to be a doctor one day. I smiled upon the sky when I thought that I am like a step forward to achieve my future. This is the best thing happen to my life. Being a doctor is always been my childhood dream. I smiled again.
And oh, it’s Valentine day and how much I hated this month of the year. Girls around the campus are running around with their gift here and there – obviously chocolate and others sweet – for their valentine’s. But wait until next month where it’s white day where instead it’s the guys turned to do what the girls have done around 14th February.
And me? Well, I am not into it that much, I rather occupied myself with my UNI work. I rather stress myself out rather than running around the campus, how pity. I just smiled and looked at them with silly looks on my face. Them with their chocolates and I with my books, perfect!!



3:00 pm –


I stretched myself and when I looked at my watched, its 3:00 pm already and its time for me to head home. Quickly, I grabbed all my stuff and cleaned everything up so that I can go home as fast as I can. In the midst of cleaning them up, my stomach made such awful melody – I giggled to myself knowing that I have been busied and forgot about foods.
I did rather fast so I can stop by any café to get myself some takeaway foods. I can’t wait to idle myself when I get home.



4:30 pm –


Finally, I’m home. At last...!! I sighed with a relief. Slowly I put the foods on the kitchen counter and before I can get myself stuff, I head off for a shower to clean myself up.
I took my clothes off and everything then when I was about to head for the bathtub, I heard a doorbell. I grabbed my towel and wrapped it around my body and just like that I ran to the door and checked who’s in front of the door. I peeked through the hole and saw him. I was shocked to see him stood right in front of my door. I wondered what he’s doing here.


“Lee Young...I know you’re there. Open up for me, please?” I felt hesitate, I don’t know if I should or shouldn’t. Just to make sure, I opened my mouth.
“What are you doing here? You should be with that nagger and not here.” Somehow, I felt a bit upset.
“I should be but instead, I’m here. Please, open the door for me?” I am not sure what he wanted. Slowly, I opened the door because he insisted. When I opened the door slowly, he barged inside and grabbed me. With a kicked from his foot, he slammed the door closed. Then he pushed me to the wall.
“Jun Ho!!” I shouted his name since I was in pain. He pushed me to the wall a bit too hard. I don’t want a sore back. He didn’t reply yet and that’s the opportunity for me to pay back. Whilst he still stood perfectly still. I kicked him with my knees. And him with the pain, he slowly let go of me as he fell down on the floor in pain. I felt so win inside. Slowly I lowered down my body as the same height as he does. “Now, do you feel the pain?!! Do you know how hurt it was when you pushed me to the wall?!! I am not planning to have a sore back any seconds and I’m not starting to have it, you understood?!!” He didn’t reply and just nodded. Not long after, he left with a sore. I chuckled and now, I can have my soothing bath with a peaceful time.



7:00 pm –


Phone rang and I quickly ran to pick it up. I received such a worried call from ahjusshi that made me ran off to the hospital as soon as possible. When I arrived at the location, there’s ahjusshi stood in front of the patience room and the second he saw me, he waved his hand at me. He seems pale. I paced my steps approaching him.


“Obasan....what’s wrong?” I literally called him that.
“Woo Young inside, go visit him.” He seems calm, maybe this time it didn’t affect me. He continued; “And don’t call me obasan, you sneaky mice!!” Then again, I was wrong. I didn’t say much after that, I went inside the room and there I saw him laid on the bed resting. I felt slightly relief when he saw me and threw a smile. I moved forwards approaching him.
“Lee Young-sshi...” He said my name. At this moment, I’m very happy that he mentioned my name but on the other hand, I’m worried. I smiled at him and he smiled back to me. Slowly he lifted his arm and moved it towards my face. He rubbed my cheeks and I felt that special feeling. The only thing I could do is to smile at him. “Are you happy?” I just nodded. It just too pain to handle this and I couldn’t...It’s hurt around my chest and heart. “....I noticed. I’m sorry.” I shake my head gently.
“......You made me worried.” He laughed lightly but then he stopped laughing as he held back a pain around his body. “Are you okay?!!” I became panic but he wanted me to be calm. He smiled to make me smile but how could I when I seeing him in pain in front of me. He shakes his head and told me he’ll be alright. How could he lie when it’s so obvious in front of my eyes?



This time...I couldn’t help it. Tears flew down through my cheeks. I cried in front of him.
Why am I feeling so sad around him when all the entire times, when we have always been far from each others.


Slowly he pulled me closer to him and hugged me gently. I felt so calm with such warmth came from him.
I can feel his heartbeat and its beating so fast.
I can feel his breathing so close to me.


Of course, I can hear him whispering to me;



“I noticed...and this time, I don’t want to lose what I wanted.”
I was surprised, yet I felt so happy in my life. Slowly I moved a bit away from him and stared into his eyes smiling and said; “Am I going to be that one?” He smiled.
“Always...only you I have noticed all these times.” He smiled again.
“Don’t you mind at what the others would think?” He shakes his head unhesitating.
“No...And if they’re true fans, then they will be happy for me.” That’s already enough to make me smile.



“Are you sure? Because, I’m just a helper.”

I’m just a helper.




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April 25th of 2010.

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