Prologue
[A/N] : This color is Seung Hyun thought of mind
When I see her, I can feel her loneliness, sorrow and gloomy.
It somehow, there is something from the past of her life that she has been in grief.
I can feel her soreness...in pain. I can see it in her face, but why aren’t people say anything?
Or am I just the one being so concern about her, here?
Concern?!! Am I even worth enough to concern about her?
Her...who is just anyone that I don’t even know and me?
Between us, we are so different.
Rumor say, people like me aren’t fit enough to love an ordinary people. Why? Because of what?
I’m also normal human being; I can love and have relationship with anyone I want too.
They don’t have the right to say about this, because this concern about my private life.
They have no point in minding my own other life.
I feel like wanting to know more about her.
But she is like other fan, should I know more about her?
Or shouldn’t I?
Should I just leave her alone like that?
There is this magnet that wanted me to go after her.
I.......
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“Hey Seung Hyun....what are you thinking about? Ehh, what are you staring at?” – Ji Yong.
Ehh, this leadah, he always want to know what is wrong with us. Such great leadah, no wonder he is a great one.
“Oh, hey...nothing. I’m just thinking, that is all.”
“Really? Are you still thinking about her? Do you....” – Ji Yong.
Before he can say anything about her, I better cut it off or else he would tell the whole world about it. But no, he is not that kind of person; he won’t do that without thinking wise.
“No, Ji Yong. No, don’t say I cannot be friend with her. Because I....”
“I haven’t finish at what I am going to say, you already cut me out, hyeong. No, I don’t say there will be harm to be friend with her. You have the right to be friend with anyone, I have no problem with that, we don’t. But you know the consequences; I just want you to take care of yourself and that is all.” – Ji Yong.
What a relief. See, he is the best and know what is best for us. That’s why we have no problem in him being our leader.
“Hyeong, you like her?” – Seung Ri.
Ahh, another Seung Hyun in the group, but he is a Lee and I’m a Choi. He looks older amongst all of us, but he is the youngest of all; the maknae.
“Why you say like that?!!”
“Because, when Ji Yong hyeong want to say something and you thought he wanted to say something unexpected, you cut his sentences off. You....really don’t want anyone to say that you cannot be friend with her, right?” – Seung Ri.
He is right; I really don’t want anyone to say anything that makes me snap off, because they don’t know her, so they don’t have the right to say anything about her. Just like what everyone say; do not judge book by its cover.
“Hyeong, we know we always support you in anything and this concern your private life which anyone have no right to touch. So, why not, go ahead, hyeong. But hey, make sure after you know her, bring and introduce her to us. Who know, she would be our nuna in law *chuckles*” – Seung Ri.
“Ehh!! No, no such thing as nuna in law, Seung Ri.”
“Ehh ehh!! There she is, hyeong, go...go!!” – Dae Sung.
“What, ehh, don’t push me just like that. Everyone is watching us, Dae Sung.”
Dae Sung, his words is sometimes have meaning on it and very mature. Yet, he is the prankster, love to make jokes and make us laugh at it.
“Why not? She is just right there. Go, or it will be another time. If it is another time, I’m afraid....will she be there when you expected her to be?” – Young Bae.
“I will look for her every where, no matter what!!”
I have made my promised, I will go look for her even if it takes million of times looking for her.
But....I don’t think this time is the time for me to do so.
Even so they are supporting me to do so; I can feel not this time.
It will become worsen if I approach her now.
“*coughing* Ahn Lee, are you done yet? Can we leave now?” – ???
“Ahh, Yun Park-ah, can we just stay for a bit longer? I want to see Big Bang more and more. It’s not like everyday they come here for a photo shoot.” – Ahn Lee.
“*coughing* No, cannot. I have to go now, or I’ll going to be late.” – Yun Park.
“I’m sorry, Yun Park. Okay, let’s go now.” – Ahn Lee.
“Are you sure? Because....I don’t want to get in your way. You can stay here, I’ll go alone.” – Yun Park.
“Aishh, what are you saying? Just because they are Big Bang, I would break my promised to my one and only best friend? They are not worth for our friendship, Yun Park.” – Ahn Lee.
Hmm, where are they going? Are they leaving?
I notice she always covering her mouth and she looks so pale today; paler than ever.
Is she alright? I just hope she is.
That night....
As usual, Seung Hyun walks outside to their veranda to have a fresh air.
Standing outside, looking up ahead as he raises his head to the sky at night.
“Stars....I wonder what she is doing...”
“Yun Park...how is your day, today?” – ???
“Erm, great I guess. Ahh, eonnie, will I be.......” – Yun Park.
“..........” – ???
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