The Secret in Me... Reprise

Episode 4





[A/N] : This color is Seung Hyun thought of mind
This color is Yun Park thought of mind




At Dong’s place... –

Night has arrives....where Yun Park opens the window just to watch the starry night – full of stars.
She move her body little bit forward where she put down her arm on the edge of the window while crossing her arm.
She gently rubs her arm because the wind breezing so cold.


“Ahh, the wind breezing so.....ehh?” – Yun Park, she kept on starring at the sky and didn’t realize there is someone standing in front of their house. “Oppa?” “Why is he here? And how did he know my house?”

“Yun Park...” – Seung Hyun, smiling and waving at Yun Park at the same time. He looks around then just like that he climb up until he reaches her window. “Hei...”
“Ahh...careful, you might fall...” – Yun Park, holding Seung Hyun arm.
“Do not worry, I won’t fall...” – Seung Hyun.
“Ahh, you always like this, aren’t you? Being so careful?” – Yun Park.
“Eii, I must....being careful. Or else, I would be defeated....by myself.” – Seung Hyun.
“Aishh, oppa.” – Yun Park. Seung Hyun finally gets into Yun Park room and smile at him because he hold on to his words that he just said.
“So....how are you?” – Seung Hyun, as he sits on the floor leaning his back body to the wall.
“Oppa....next question...” – Yun Park, sitting on the floor facing Seung Hyun.
“..........” – Seung Hyun.
“........Are you.....alright? Is anything happen?” – Yun Park.
“.......No, it’s nothing. Just that, it is not the same without you...” – Seung Hyun.
“Who am I to you actually, oppa? I am just no body....we never meet before but then few weeks before all of sudden, you became all concern....” – Yun Park.
“...........” – Seung Hyun.
What she said is true...but.....
I just.....


“Never mind, oppa. I understand, so it’s alright not to answer.” – Yun Park.
“Come here....sit next to me...” – Seung Hyun. Slowly Yun Park move towards Seung Hyun and sit next to him.
“Oppa.....will there be next time?” – Yun Park.
“.........” – Seung Hyun.
“Next time....for everything.” – Yun Park. “Oppa....tell me...”
“Tell....you? About what? Ask me, I’ll for sure answer it, Yun Park.” – Seung Hyun.
“Tell me....the truth, oppa. I know it, you are......one of the idols, am I right?” – Yun Park.
“If I tell you....will you be like those other girls? Who goes crazy over their idols?” – Seung Hyun.
“Oppa!! I have known it before, so what’s the used for me to shout like those girls when I am here talking like you.....like this, just as the same as before. Nothing will change oppa. Oppa will be oppa, even so you are an idols to everyone.” - Yun Park.
“I just wanting real friend....” – Seung Hyun.
“Am I not your real friend, oppa?!! Then......” – Yun Park, couldn’t finish his sentence when Seung Hyun interrupt.
“NO!! You will never be a friend to me...you are..........” – Seung Hyun, didn’t finish his sentence.
You will always be someone special to me.
A friend....that is more than that.
Don’t you realizes, Yun Park....?!!

“Then what am I?” – Yun Park.
“...........More than you expected.” – Seung Hyun.
“No!! I cannot be more than that. Can you see? I cannot, oppa, I can’t!! I am not like anyone else. We can be friend – close friend – but please not more than that. I don’t want to burden you....I’m just a waste of time.” – Yun Park.
“That is what you think, how about me? Don’t you have ever thought of me? You are not a waste of my time.” – Seung Hyun.
“.......please oppa.” – Yun Park, as she is tearing up. She tries to stop tears flowing down her cheeks but she fails. “Why is it had to be me?”


More than anything, your tears.....it pain more than ever to me.
I hate when you cry....
It aches in my heart....


Seung Hyun moves his hand towards Yun Park face as he touches it and turns her face towards him.
He wipes the tears away with his thumbs.


“Believe me....I am here for you. Can you....stay strong, just for the two of us?” – Seung Hyun.


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1 year later... –


Since that night, I never see her anymore.
I try to go to her house, but I failed to see her.
I wonder where she is.
I wonder what she is doing.
I just miss her....that is all.
And one thing I wishes for now is to meet her.
I need......to see her, very much.
Time just too cruel....I wishes that time would stop so that I can be with her – just the two of us, alone.



“Hyeong!! Hyeong!! Someone wants to talk to you!!” – Seung Ri.
“Ehh, from who Seung Ri?” – Seung Hyun. Seung Ri shake his head and handed the cell phone to Seung Hyun.
“Hello...?” – Seung Hyun, answering the call.
“......Oppa....” – Yun Park.
“.........” – Seung Hyun, shocks moment.
“......Oppa....I......” – Yun Park.


Without listening until the end, Seung Hyun already drops the cell phone.
The cell phone drop to the ground as it fell down and crashed into pieces.
Seung Ri saw Seung Hyun who accidentally drop the cell phone.


“Yah, now its broken hyeong...!!” – Seung Ri. One of the workers there quickly cleans it up after at what had happen.
“Seung Hyun-ahh, you alright? You suddenly look pale...” – Young Bae.
“.......She.....has returned....” – Seung Hyun, startle.
“You mean..........” – Dae Sung. Seung Hyun nodded.
“Go....Seung Hyun, go look for her.” – Ji Yong.
“Ehh.....?!!” – Seung Hyun.
“Maybe this is the only chances, hyeong. Go, hyeong. She must have misses you.” – Young Bae.
“............” – Seung Hyun, didn’t waste anymore time, he storm off and started to look for her.



Meanwhile... –
At the hospital... –


“Dongsaeng...are you sure? He does hang up on the call.” – Yun Jae.
“.........Maybe something happen to him...it’s alright, eonnie. He must be busy...” – Yun Park. “It’s has been a year long already that we both didn’t see each other since that night. And it has been a year long as well that I stayed here. I felt so bored everyday and I just hope that my time will be end soon. I just don’t want this torture anymore. There is nothing much of me to do here in the world.”

“Are you sure, dongsaeng? Have you told him where you are at all this time?” – Yun Jae. Yun Park shakes her head.


Just as Yun Jae about to say something, they heard a conversation that happens outside the room.
Yun Park looks at Yun Jae then without wasting anymore time, Yun Jae grab the wheel chair and pull it next to Yun Park bed.
After Yun Park has sat on the wheel chair, Yun Jae pulls her to the outside.


“Eomma!! How can I live now?!! I want to live!! But with my heart problem, it is all over!!” – Patience1.
“........We have to be patience until the donor is here, Kim Hae. Please, be patience, dear.” – Patience1; Kim Hae mother.


“Yun Park....” – Yun Jae.
“.......Eonnie, if......” – Yun Park, as she grasp her hand tighter.
“No....don’t tell me.......” – Yun Jae, as she knows what her dongsaeng is thinking. Quickly she run to the front and squat down with one knee on the floor. “Why?”
“Simple answer, eonnie....there is no use for me to be here anymore. Even so, but who will be the one that capable to help me? Even I myself failed to do so. My body....it’s.........” – Yun Park. Yun Jae quickly holds her hand.
“No...How about me? How about appa, eomma? Our family? How about us? I only got one dongsaeng and I don’t want to lose her in anyway. And............how about him – Seung Hun?!!” – Yun Jae. Yun Park smiles and shakes her head.
“Eonnie....I love you so much...I love eomma and appa as well. But........” – Yun Jae.
“Just..........please, dongsaeng, please....” – Yun Jae, tearing up. But she quickly wipes it away and stands up as she walks the back of the wheelchair. “Dongsaeng, how about the two of us going out? Just the two of us – sister outing?”
“I would love that eonnie.” – Yun Park.
“So then, how about tomorrow? That is after I ask the doctor is she allow me to take you out. So I am going to ask her permission now, so wait for eonnie, alright?” – Yun Jae. She started to run off and left Yun Park behind. She smiles and starts to pushes the wheel forward.


Yun Park pushes the wheel until she arrives at the hospital park.
She is taking a stroll and at the same time watching the other patience having fun at the park. They are smiling even though they know they are sick, making Yun Park to smile along.
She pushes and pushes the wheel chair until she arrives at the pond.


“Ahh, the pond is so beautiful.” – Yun Park. “Seeing the pond is like this....at how much I want it to stay perfect like this, it will never be. Because nothing can be so perfect, eventually they will die also.” “*sneazing* Achoo...aish, such troublesome.”
“Are you sure you are allowed to be here outside when you know the weather is not suit for your health? Plus, you aren’t wearing a thick cloth...that is why it wills easily making you feeling cold.” – ???
“Ahh? Who is there?” – Yun Park, she is slowly turning the wheel chair.
“Hai....I’m sorry to disturb you but I see you..........” – ???
“Hello.....” – Yun Park, throwing smile at her.
“Ahh....I’m sorry. My name is Kim Hae. I’m new here....I got here for having heart attack. You see, my heart is always weak and I have problem to do outdoor activity which I always does before in the past. And now, I couldn’t anymore.” – Kim Hae.
“You can call me Yun Park. I heard your conversation with your mother which happened in front of my room. Sorry to hear, but you need donor?” – Yun Jae.
“Yes...it has been a month and still no new. Sigh, I just really hope it is here...oh, how about you, Yun Park?!! What is the cause for you to be here? If....you don’t mind to tell me...” – Kim Hae.
“My body is already fragile, and I cannot stand up just like I always do in the past. I have problem with my body where it suddenly can shut down by itself making me falls unconscious. And if this keep on happening which it does, sooner or later, my memory and brain will got affected making it worst. Soon, my brain will be malfunction and that is affecting me also. I won’t be able do the thing that other people do and now I am on the stage 2.” – Yun Park.
“Oh...I.....I’m sorry to hear that. But, can it be recover?” – Kim Hae.
“I........always want to live like everyone does, but I can’t, can I?” – Yun Park.
“.........” – Kim Hae.



“I want to live.....
Is that the hardest thing I have to do, now?
Can I?
I can’t, can I?”


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